Most of the time I don't mind being single, today is not one of those days. Today is one of those days I wish I had a significant other, someone I could confide in. Someone I can discuss the things that are weighing heavy on my mind. Someone I can lay my head upon his shoulder and work together to find solutions to the things that I am unsure about. I have many wonderful friends that I know would be more than happy to hear my thoughts and offer advice, and I am thankful for them, but today I want more than that. Today I want someone stronger than me, someone who can listen and help me to know what to do. Someone who can carry me once in awhile. Not all the time, as I am capable of doing that myself, but once in awhile it would be nice to have someone to lean on.
Maybe it is the weather that has me all melancholy, maybe it is the many things that weigh on my mind that make me need someone stronger than myself. Whatever it is, It makes me frustrated at where I am in my life. I know there is a reason for everything that happens, and there is a reason why I am single still. I at least hope so, heck maybe that reason is just me.
Anyway... I am in a weird mood today, I can't seem to shake it. I apologize to those who's emails are being flooded with my thoughts this week. I know I am blogging more than usual. I can't seem to shut my mind of for one second. I can't get a grasp on it all. So many different directions, so many things that require attention from me. So many decisions to make. UGH! For Sure!! I have no idea what steps to take, what direction to go.
So I guess the best thing to do is to take one thing at a time and just work through it, knowing whatever decisions I make will be my own, and that's the best I can do.
